I am your father, Floyd Jones. I sincerely LOVE YOU.

I would do anything for you. I would die for you.

I have honestly ALWAYS & will ALWAYS LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU BEAUTIFUL GIRLS.

I will continue to pray for the both of you & that God reunites us someday. 🙏🙏🙏

Just remember God 🕊️ loves you & I love you FOREVER & EVER.

As for me I don't really know what to say I enjoy art a lot painting and illustration and I have dabbled in graphic design as well. Painting is my favorite TBH. In my opinion a painting is probably the most aesthetic form of art.  I have always been pretty into art. It was really the only thing I was ever good at. As a child I was kind of naturally gifted/talented at it. As I have gotten older I am pretty out of practice now (rather a understatement). It is something I intend to work on getting back into for my own self satisfaction. It gives me a sense of accomplishment. Considering I am not as good at art as I was when I younger, I am aware my stuff will never end up in a museum or sold or anything like that but I do it for myself and my mental health. Some other things I enjoy are obviously spending time with my best buddy Rune the dog, exercising (lifting weights & running), oddly enough cleaning & organizing has become somewhat of a hobby for me, praying & meditating, I absolutely love getting lost in a good book... reading is fun (the bible, detective books, fantasy, science fiction, & of course I love comic books), learning new things, sometimes I spend to much time watching movies and TV shows which I try to limit now, and for now that is about all I can think of. Oh yeah I do enjoy computers... tinkering with the Linux operating system & once and a while video games. I am a big believer in trying to be good and doing the next right thing. Despite what I said about being a good person... which I REALLY DO BELIEVE IN... I am not really a people person... it is not really my thing... When I was younger it seemed like I was much more social. As an adult I find people unpredictable & untrustworthy. Personally I am much more of a dog person. I find dogs are much much much better kinder and loving than humans will ever be. Some people are cool and some aren't. I don't really find it hard sometimes to decipher who is good and who is bad. I generally kind of have a belief humans... people in general are somewhat evil. I still try to be good to people but generally I avoid them. It is somewhat cynical but it's reality. Yeah and that is that. I have found that my dog is good enough for me. His love is more than I need. My dad and brother and his family are good to have around to but the dog is pretty much my best friend. We are inseparable. All I know is when I am with my dog... my lil man the rest of the world and it's bullshit doesn't matter. Honestly my dog is my deepest relationship/connection and I am okay with that. He has been with me through my best and worst days. He loves me for exactly for who I am and that is everything. Our connection is truly something special. I cherish having him in my life. In fact I would say is the best part of my life. He is all I really got. People are unreliable and will always let you down. A dog is beyond loyal. When I meet God I am going to only have one simple request of him. To reunite me with my dog in heaven. We can play all day... it's gonna be BLISS NIRVANA

I REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE MY DOG

I am actually at the John Ball zoo park or park near the John Ball zoo and I would actually say that walking my dog here in this park  just walking my dog in general is the closest thing to heaven on Earth as it gets. I have never regretted walking my dog it is absolutely magical. Something truly special.

At some point perhaps I will post some of my art work on here for you to see... right now I don't have much art that I can find worth posting. A lot of my best pieces of art where given away or it has been destroyed or thrown out or lost. I am plan to dedicate myself to working on art at least a hour a day so we will see how that goes.

I recall when you where younger Brooklyn I attempted to sketch and paint you after we stopped our video chats or whatever I just gave up on it. It was just to devastating. Similarly with you Arabella I still have the pictures of you but looking at them literally hurt(s) my heart to much. It doesn't mean I don't care about you. It is just hard. I don't know what I did with the sketches I did of you Brooklyn. They were rather large scale sketches. I might still be able to find them and complete what I started. I wanted to use the sketches as a ruff draft and paint you when you where really young. Perhaps if I can find the sketches that I started I could still attempt to paint you as a young girl.  Same thing goes for you Arabella. Maybe if I could gain the courage to look the photos of you when you where a kid I could produce a painting of you as well. That would be pretty cool.

When I was younger I primary drew and painted the human body male and female. I started when I was a kid drawing mostly comic book characters, ninja turtles, realism and things out of my mind. IDKW it was just something I enjoyed. Now that I am a adult I have been drawing my dog which is foreign to me. Like everything it was difficult at first and has kind of gotten easier. All I know is I am going to do my best to try and pump out some art whether is sucks or not.

My father is Lutheran and my mother was Catholic. I am non-denominational Christian. I find Jesus is the answer to all of my problems. Only through God & Jesus do I find PEACE & emotional/mental stability. I hope the both of you find salvation & peace through Jesus as well. Arabella I remember giving you that bible and the cheap Walmart Christian cross as a child. Brooklyn I remember sending you the gold Christian cross necklace and your mother. I hope that helped the both of you. Arabella I always wanted to get you a real gold necklace like your sister. Perhaps that is something I can do someday. I would be more than happy to do it. Brooklyn if your necklace was ever broken or lost I would be more than happy to replace it.  Blah IDK what the hell I am saying...

I will never give up or stop loving you there is nothing you could ever do that would cause me to stop loving you even if you hate me which I understand completely. No matter what sin you have committed I will always have unconditional love for both you Arabella & Brooklyn.

Without getting into the details or nitty-gritty... I don't want to bring up the past to much but I really thought things where going to go differently than I planned with the both of you girls. I never expected things to go the way they did but they did. Nothing turned out the way I thought it was going to and I am forever sorry for that. I always, always wanted to be there for the both of you. Obviously things definitely did not go the way I thought they would. I realize none of that is your fault and you probably will never really understand or care. Even though I feel like it was pretty much out of my control that doesn't really matter to you I am sure. As children I wasn't there. Whether it was my fault or not. I feel like a lot of it wasn't. From your perspective I wasn't there. I cannot even imagine the pain as children growing without a father... I don't have the words... I cannot even comprehend how hard that was on you. I am so DEEPLY SORRY. I am sure sorry just isn't good enough. The only thing I can say is regardless of what you have been told... I always wanted to be in your lives. Brooklyn when we were doing our video chats, I made mistakes and reacted wrong to eternal circumstances. I guess without going into detail it's impossible for me to explain. I feel like giving the details over the internet are not a good idea. None of this probably makes sense to you. Enough babbling this isn't really help. Kind of incoherent I guess. I am done rambling on. Screw the past... all that matter is right now and hopefully through Jesus, through God who I believe can do anything. I hope God reunites us, our family someday... kind of like a touched by an angel TV episode. I realize life is not a TV series but GOD is very real and capable of doing anything including reuniting us as a family. I am going to trust god, have faith, and never give up HOPE that we will be brought together once again someday.

There is A LOT you don't know though. If you want the truth. I would be happy to explain things better in person. I guess it really doesn't matter form your perspective but it might help if I were able to explain what happened when you where born/younger. IDK you probably don't even care but I am almost sure neither of you really got the full honest explanation. Regardless like I said the past is the past. I pray you are both okay... happy... healthy.... the most important thing is not really even me. It is your well beings and happiness that is really what matters. I don't care what you look like (I am sure your both beautiful girls, I know you where when I saw you last), I don't really care if your successful, I just really want you to be okay & happy in life. I just don't even have the words anymore... I guess articulating myself isn't my strong suit.

One last thing... Brooklyn I remember you as a young girl showing me your art. I remember you were VERY TALENTED. I don't know if it is something you persuade but my brain just clicked (it has been a REALLY long time since we used to see one another) and it just came back to me. I loved looking at your art and I am not just saying this I really though you were good at it. Anyway kool stuff... ;-)

I REALLY REALLY RALLY liked your artwork as a young girl though and I am happy that we both shared that common interest. ;lkajsdf;alkjsd;lfkaj

Brooke I sincerely thought as a young girl though your art was AWESOME :-)

funny um I remember Brooklyn you telling me what your favorite colors where and animals as well. You were just an adorable lil girl. I think if I recall correct at the time you like pink, purple, & red. :-) IDK things might have, probably have changed but IDK

Maybe if you still practice art as a adult you could show me some of your stuff... I would love to see it. OR some of your artwork from growing up. I would really love to see some of the stuff you made. Arabella IDK if art is something you enjoy but same goes for you. Would just really be kool to see anything either of you have created. If art isn't something either of you are into anymore I would just be happy to know about any hobbies either of you have. I am sure you both are intelligent girls though... I KNOW you both where as kids.

I um do not, do not like America. I do not have a patriotic bone in my body. I am NOT a fan to say the least. I do not want to go into detail over the internet but I have without question experienced more than my fair share of corruption. My dad can confirm everything I have to say regarding that matter. I am working on not being angry or bitter about it anymore but some of it even has to do why I was not able to see you. It is really complicated probably not worth mentioning but IDK it was a non stop ongoing issue though and just really fucked my life up. Since I have moved from my childhood house it finally seems to have ended. I am doing my best to leave it in the past but since some of it seems to have affected our relationship... I guess that is why I brought it up. It is definitely part of my my life story. If you ever wish to know more I can certainly elaborate more in person. My allegiance will NEVER, EVER be to the United States after dealing with extensive corruption for so long. That is all I know & all the further I care to elaborate over the internet. My mother was aware of it as well... who obliviously passed away. Well aware of it. I don't know um the county I lived in before... I am not going to beat around the bush... was absolutely corrupt though. It's a fact. My brother who lives in Indianian is also well aware of what happened. I don't know if you will ever believe me but um my father is a honorable man. He even served in the military. He has no reason to lie. He can verify everything I have to say. It was a relentless hell TBH, a never ending problem... A truly horrible environment. I will just say it Ottawa County, Michigan is PURE CORRUPT. Beyond that... I guess that is all I have to say about that over the internet. I don't want to dwell on past either but it is what it is. My mom would have definitely confirmed what I am saying. My Dad is no lair... He can back up everything as well. Anyway that is that... if you don't believe me... maybe the fact that my Dad... a man who worked his ass off all his life... IDK served in the military... just maybe that would help you to believe that I am definitely telling the truth. It was really a never ending problem for me there... in Ottawa County Michigan. I am so thankful and grateful not to be there anymore. They lie, cheat, and manipulate... abuse power... I will just give ONE example of many, many, many incidents of corruption... breaking my left hand (my dominate hand which I do art with) on my property for absolutely no reason at all alkfdjaskdjfa POWER & CONTROL

My allegiance will never be to America which I KNOW is corrupt... it will always be to God & my family & that is who I am. I will never change my belief/conviction on this for anyone. I KNOW the truth & so does my Dad. I will always THINK 4 MYSELF.

I am not afraid or ashamed to talk about it either or go into detail. It is a complex mess though & I feel like the internet is not the best place to elaborate on this topic either. IDK blah

I am done on this topic. I only brought it up because it did effect partially our relationship and it affected me on daily basis while I was living there. It never seemed to end until I moved. It would have never ended unless I moved. I try to no longer allow it to bother me but lk;jkl;jlkjhjgfghdfjhfd

I even try my best to forgive it but I know I will never forget.

One last important tidbit of Wisdom: through out your life I hope no matter what trials and tribulations you experience you NEVER GIVE UP... stay persistent despite your circumstances or adversity and focus of God. He will get you through whatever you are going through. Always look to God. Since I am not there and unable to be with you right now... I figure I am not much help to you unfortunately even though I want to be. I PROMISE you no matter is going on... no matter how difficult life seems... no matter what is negatively affecting you... a person, place, or thing... or even if it is a internal conflict within yourself I KNOW if you study Gods word and apply it you can overcome ANYTHING.

That is why I believe... almost certain... yeah I do remember sending you a bible Brooklyn. IDK if you ever got it. I know I gave you a bible as well Arabella. That is why I got you the Christian cross necklaces as well. I was aware that things probably were not going to work out regarding me being in your life. SO I KNEW the one thing I could do is leave you something Christian related. I hoped that it would leave some positive/good impact on you. I knew if I could not be in your life, God would help and protect you. I still believe that.

ALWAYS have faith & TRUST God

Preserver, preserver, preserver keep going forward ENDURE to the very end (with God ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE)

unshakable faith

unwearied patience

Unwavering courage

Pure in heart

adversity brings courage "Be strong and of good courage" (Joshua 1:9)

God uses adversity, hardship, and pain in our life to get us thinking right

Obey God & leave the consequences to him

God has a plan for our life HE has the best for us ~ Adversity is one of Gods ways to molding us into his likeness, holiness, righteousness

When adversity comes open up your bible. You will find words of encouragement in there. It's the most precious thing you own.

Make the right choice ~ be like the Lord Jesus

Be the kind of child of God that would attract other people to the Lord Jesus Christ who is my Savior in my life ~ I bet you have suffered adversity in life unlike anything I would probably know about ~ God knows where you are.  He is there with you in that adversity... he do exactly what he promised he would do, he will help you, keep you, give you the the patience, give you the faith, give you the courage, give you the love for him, give you the ability to endure it until he is finished with that~ in order to make you the person he wants to be. TURN TO GOD

Believe and TRUST GOD ~ The GOD of the bible ~ he sent his son JESUS to the cross ~ to die on the cross for our sins ~the shedding of Jesus blood on the cross paid our sin debt in full ~ the moment you ask him to forgive your sin ~ your not going to be a perfect person ~ HE is asking you to surrender your life to him, accept the death of his son as payment for you sin, become one of his children, he will grow you up ~ when you allow him to grow you up with the adversity, the difficulties, the hardships, the pain in life he will make you a trophy... you will be like a jewel to all mighty God. That is you will shine forth as a saint, not perfect, but as a saint, not sinless but holy, he will bless you in ways you can never imagine, that is who he is that is the kind of God we have. TRUST IN GOD

Surrender you life to him ~ I pray God helps you in your adversity Arabella & Brooklyn in Jesus name

adversity are just challenges to who we are and who we are becoming and a pathway to become the person JESUS wants us to be ~ I pray the things that are troubling you, acknowledged Jesus as the one true God & that he joins you in your adversity no matter what

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I have found personally Arabella & Brooklyn that my challenges, trials and tribulations, pain & suffering are hard at times, almost seemingly impossible to handle at times but um they have a way of bringing ME CLOSE TO GOD JESUS and somehow that gives me sense of peace in the long run. God's love really helps, there is nothing like it.

I don't know if either of you will find this website but I hope in some way shape or form it helps you. If things don't ever work out for us... I truly wish you the very best in life. I will be praying for the both of you ceaselessly.

I am so so so sorry the way things worked out I REALLY FUCKED UP & I will have to live with that forever. Some things aren't my fault but um some things definitely are and um fka;ljsdk;jfa;sd

ALWAYS ALWAYS KEEP TRYING, KEEP TRYING, KEEP TRYING, NEVER GIVE UP & ALWAYS DO THE NEXT RIGHT THING

I know I sound like a broken record so this is the last thing I am going to post on this website but um Arabella I am pretty confident you are unaware of the truth surrounding your birth & me and Brooklyn the more I think about it the more certain I am I sent you a bible (if I recall correctly it was a girls bible specially) IDK if you ever got the bible or the gold christian cross necklace IDK if you are even aware of what happened regarding me seeing you. I honestly JUST DON'T KNOW. IDK if you even know the bible was from me or the golden christian cross necklace or any of the gifts iI sent you... I guess it doesn't matter. It's all in the past now. Brooklyn I am guessing your mom probably told you but IDK Arabella I am guessing your in the dark as far as the truth goes but I well aware that none of that probably matters to either of you. From your point of view I am fairly confident all that matters is that I was not there & uh I am sure the pain that caused you is a burn that never goes away. I imagine your both going to have some pretty hardcore abandonment issues and uh sorry just doesn't cut it. Like I said most things were just not in my control. Some where though and I take full responsibility for everything. Even the things that I could do anything about... it's on me. It's all on me. I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO. BLAH When both of you turn 18 I am going to do everything in my power to track you down and pray that uh we might a relationship. IDK if I will ever be able to find either of you... probably not... IDK IDK IDK but I will do my damnedest to try. Obviously I AM NOT A FOOL... my best guess is neither of you are going to want to have anything to do with me. At that point it it's gonna hurt me forever and ever and ever but um I will have no choice but to accept that. I do not have any expectations that either of you will even want to talk to me... I PROMISE I WILL RESPECT THAT. It would be a MIRACLE though if either of you were to want to have something to do with me... some kind of relationship. That would be well... like I said a pure MIRACLE a blessing from God (I probably don't deserve) NOTHING would make me happier. BLAH all I can do now is my best in life for the both of you. I am gonna keep going shooting for that and of course PRAY PRAY PRAY. No matter what... I am sure you won't have any feelings for me... or you will probably more than likely hate me but like I said I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU... I WILL ALWAYS CARE ABOUT YOU... I WILL ALWAYS WANT THE BEST FOR BOTH OF YOU.. I ALWAYS HAVE... I ALWAYS WILL. I guess that is that... I will update this website with more pictures of my father and my brother and his family but I feel like everything that I needed to say has been said and more. Like I said I left the details of certain things surrounding me and the both of you I left out because the internet just is not the appropriate place for that. This is the end of me positing on here.

I never ever want to tell you what to do... I am a BIG believer in THINKING FOR YOURSELF and making your choices in life. Whatever you think is right... just have faith in God & in yourself. I am sure you will make the right choice for you. I realize if I told you what to think and feel you wouldn't even be human beings, you would be robots. I never wanted a robot for a children/daughters. Make your own choices in life. I will PRAY PRAY PRAY for you nonstop just uh try to follow and obey God and uh I am sure everything will be just alright for you.

My personal opinion is if anyone tires to tell you what to think or feel or or what to believe or what you need or what is right for you or what to do in life they are probably full of shit anyway. whether they are aware of it or not that is kinda poison. Some people just like to control people and um that shit sucks. Sometimes they think they are helping but it usually cause a lot of problems at least in my experience. It um doesn't hurt to ask for advice sometimes but um The ONLY person who you should really follow or obey or take guidance from is JESUS is the great counselor IMO

You will know what is right for you... whether it is me or not... you'll know what is right for you. I believe in that & in you. You will know deep down inside you I think... what is right for yourself.

THEN MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS CHOICES/DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU (JUST OBEY GOD, he is always right and will never let you down... JESUS is the answer to all of your needs, anxieties, worries, & problems... JESUS will always LOVE YOU & ACCEPT YOU FOR EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE more than me or anyone else can... even a dog LRL)

Whatever you believe is probably right as long as it aligns with God's word. If you make mistakes just try to learn from them... We all make mistake, trust me I know probably better than most... there is always hope though... Jesus is the answer... he will direct you better than anything or anyone else. TRUST HIM & don't let others, including me tell you what to do. People will always give you a line of B.S. it is human nature... trust yourself and trust God. God will give you all the answers you will ever need. HE/Jesus WILL HELP YOU, just try your best to do the next right thing... & you will be okay.

Jesus will teach you to be thankful and grateful despite not having you both in my life I am still eternally thankful for Jesus and my life in general without him I would be lost in darkness. it is a huge blessing to have my dog and my dad and my dead mother was beyond awesome and brother and his family and even my grandparents were kick ass and most of all God in my life... a place to live... my condo for now... food and um life is a gift be thankful and grateful for JESUS he is the light and life is good with him. No matter how dark or broken or fucked up life gets, there is always light with JESUS, I PROMISE you that. He will help you overcome any problem, any difficulty, ANYTHING in life. I have more than a lot of people will ever have in life and it is important to remind ourselves of that.

OH I LIED one last thing: Brooklyn I remember as a child you really enjoyed gymnastics I think... if that is something your still into I would love to see any gymnastics or ballet or whatever it was... it would be kool to see if you are still into that I would love to watch it or I am sure over time people change whatever hobbies you are into I would be happy to see how that is going for you. I do think gymnastics ballet or whatever is pretty kool though. I really do... it's awesome art form and uh yeah... Same goes for you Arabella whatever your into, whatever makes you happy... would make me happy.

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14 “For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

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16 “Behold, I send you out as sheep 🐑 in the midst of wolves 🐺. Therefore be wise as serpents 🐍 and harmless[a] as doves 🕊️.

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31 Therefore, because it was the Preparation Day, that the bodies should not remain on the cross on the Sabbath (for that Sabbath was a high day), the Jews asked Pilate that their legs might be broken, and that they might be taken away.  32 Then the soldiers came and broke the legs of the first and of the other who was crucified with Him.  33 But when they came to Jesus and saw that He was already dead, they did not break His legs.  34 But one of the soldiers pierced His side with a spear, and immediately blood and water came out.  35 And he who has seen has testified, and his testimony is true; and he knows that he is telling the truth, so that you may believe.  36 For these things were done that the Scripture should be fulfilled, “Not one of His bones shall be broken.”  37 And again another Scripture says, “They shall look on Him whom they pierced.”

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8 Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do.

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8 “But if I go to the east, he is not there;
if I go to the west, I do not find him.
9 When he is at work in the north, I do not see him;
when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him.
10 But he knows the way that I take;
when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.
11 My feet have closely followed his steps;
I have kept to his way without turning aside.
12 I have not departed from the commands of his lips;
I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread.

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24 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that heareth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation; but is passed from death unto life.

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24 Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wants to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and be following Me. 25 For whoever wants to save his life will lose it. But whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. 26 For what will a person be profited if he gains the whole world, but forfeits his life? Or what will a person give in-exchange-for his life?